Living With Paranormal Voices 02/06/2010
"I've been wanting to share this with someone for a very long time. But, usually when I tell people that I hear voices... I make a joke of it, so that they don't believe that I'm serious. I am sharing this with you. And, I am being completely serious. And I am being completely honest about it. I started hearing discarnate/disembodied voices several years ago. It was unexpected. It was upsetting. It was frightening. And, since there was nothing and no on in my life prior to the moment these experiences started that had in any way prepared me for it... it was an absolute and utterly Hellish experience for me. I made a conscious decision to not tell my family for what I thought were obvious reasons. I knew that they would leap to their conclusions based upon western civilization's favorite, pigeon-holing and usual suspects: mental illness and/or drug use. And since I knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt (after it'd started and I decided to try to do something about them/try to get rid of them - Hahaha! Good Luck with that! - I did my own self-directed study, research and even made numerous recordings of them), that neither of those was the culprit, I kept the amazing and - at the time - horrifying Hell that I was going through pretty much to just myself and a select few friends. When I did eventually tell my mother, in the most general terms, what I was experiencing, she insisted on taking me to a psychiatrist immediately. I saw two different ones. The first one was very sympathetic and easy to talk with, but, she said she wasn't the right person for me to see. The second one, after hearing my detailed description of the previous few years experiences, diagnosed me with schizophrenia. I don't hold it against her, because that's what the AMA/APA decrees and that's what they're all taught in medical school: "If a patient presents with symptoms A, B, C, D and sometimes E... then that patient belongs in slot # 1." What my beloved mother and my dear doctor don't - or won't - understand is that I have been able to repeatedly record the voices that I hear - even when I'm asleep - on a tape recorder. To put it simply, I have proof that the voices that I hear do not originate from inside my head nor from a chemical imbalance. In fact, on one particular occasion, I performed an experiment. I left one of my recordings with my Mother to listen to and I left the room for about 10 minutes - so as to not influence what she might perceive from the recording. When I returned and asked what - if anything - she heard, she looked at me with a curious look on her face and said, "I heard what sounded like a chorus of voices. And I definitely heard your name spoken a few times." I hadn't told my Mother that the recording she'd just listened to was made while I was asleep, alone in my room, with a voice-activated tape recorder. At the time, I jumped up and down triumphantly and said, "Yes! Yes! That's it. That's them! That's what they sound like... a chorus of voices! You heard them, too!". And, she acknowledged that, yes, she did hear what she had just described on the tape. (*Note: The voices that I hear have changed... not remained 100% the same over the years. Many of those that I heard in the beginning aren't heard by me now. And - in some cases - that's a very good thing.) Yet, in spite of her personal experience with my tape recorded 'evidence' that - from her own description - seems to prove that the voices I hear do not originate within me, she's still more comfortable believing that the voices are from my alleged schizophrenia. But, I don't hold this against her, either. The general population always has and still does ignore, ridicule, attack or reject outright anything that doesn't fit inside their often very narrow world-view. My doctor, my Mother and people - in general - prefer comfort to instability. I know this. They don't like extreme and sudden changes. Believe me, when this started happening, I wasn't exactly comfortable with it. I didn't like it. I didn't want it. A number of those voices that I heard in the beginning weren't exactly pleasant. And, I discovered that - at least for the time being - there was nothing I could do about it/them. I can honestly say that those initial experiences reduced my previously held world-view - of how things are... of what is... and of what isn't - to so much pulverized, powdered, unrecognizable confetti. But, hey, I survived. No bid deal. Bend and you won't break, right? Apparently, other people are deathly afraid of bending their world-views. "God" help those of us who present them with our extraordinary and genuine experiences. The ones that - if validated - would represent a significant challenge to most people's generations-old and completely-unquestioned world-view. And, as for when they are presented with evidence that seems to indicate something unexplained or (gasp!) paranormal is going on... Modern, organized religion - particularly conservative branches of Christianity - seems dead-set on only allowing a handful of men and scant few women from about 2000 years ago to have had officially-acknowledged/sanctioned, extraordinary, beyond-the-grasp-of-most-people types of experiences. Those select (and some of those selections were undoubtedly fabricated/co-opted from Pagans) stories are the only ones - for the most part - which are accepted as having any legitimacy. What did that leave the rest of of us who were born since then? Those of us who still had and are still are having these very real experiences? Well, thousands of poor souls were tortured, burned at the stake, persecuted and executed in heinous ways for hundreds of years. At least the burnings and executions finally came to a stop... Well, at least they have in the Western parts of the world. It breaks my heart to hear stories from other poorly-educated, zealot-run and repressive parts of the world. Now, the self-proclaimed Medical Deities (*M.D.s) simply try to drug us into submission. Into accepting their explanations for our incredible and awe-some experiences. To drug us into accepting their suffocatingly narrow world-view, to be obedient, to submit, to accept... just like they did. To be just like them. Don't question them. They know best. Just look at that diploma! And, look at that other diploma! They were the at the top of their class! They never questioned anything! They submitted. They accepted. They got in line. They tow the line. And, look how far it got them! ... Personally, I'd rather die than be just like them. But, since the world desperately needs more people like us - with amazing experiences and less people like them - who drug people like us... I'll just not take those meds that interfere with my experiencing my extraordinary life with (gasp!) an open mind and a flexible world-view. I haven't yet figured out what to think of those whom I hear. Sometimes I can hear them better than others. Sometimes, I've misunderstood them and I've gotten a bit angry. But, I got over it and tried again to communicate with them. Sometimes, they drive me... ah, nuts - so to speak. But, that's because I hear them all of the time... most anywhere I am - home, away from home, San Francisco, Lake Tahoe, wherever. They are just there. And they want to talk with me. I believe it's because I'm the only one whom has been able to hear them in a very long time. (One of them recently stated, "I haven't spoken to anyone in 68 years.") I've adjusted to my experiences. It took a long time to do it. It was painful. I did it mostly by myself. But, I just had to do it. After all, what choices did I have? 1.) Go crazy? Sorry, but, apparently, that is physically impossible for me to do... not that I didn't - on several occasions - wish that I would finally just crack up. I'd have been grateful. 2.) Take pharmaceuticals to numb my senses? Thank you, no. 3.) Kill myself? Nah, not gonna happen. So, I adapted... it's a lovely little thing nature gives us the option of doing to survive where others in a similar situation might not have. And, I survived... Who'd have thought it? At the onset... Not me, for one. Go figure. Anyway, thank you for letting me get this off my chest." CommentsI really feel for this individual. I think it is hardest when one’s own family looks at you sideways for having these experiences. My mom was inclined to think there was something wrong with me, but I was fortunate enough to have a dad that supported me and did what he could to protect me. My family went through a great deal of stress because of my experiences as a child. That’s one of the reasons why I don’t admit to them that I still have experiences. It was such a relief for them when I “outgrew” such things even though I didn’t really outgrow my experiences… I just learned to be quiet about them.
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Paul 02/19/2010 09:31
I totally get it. I've seen, felt, and heard -experienced things off an on my whole life. I can't tell anyone for fear of being labeled schizophrenic. But when ever I look at the deffinition of those mental disorders I don't have any of the other symptoms. I lead a fairly susscessful happy normal life. I also read up on how experiencing such things is just tricks of the mind and eye, misinformation of the brian. So I just keep quiet. I also get a kick out of how religeous folk, will say; if your not crazy, it's all of evil.
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Kia 08/11/2010 15:06
Hi. I've seen, heard and felt spirits before, some good, some bad. Sometimes I'll hear a voice call my name but it'd be inside my head. recently while working a graveyard shift. i was lying down in bed praying. I was either praying asking for direction or i was praying for a certain friend. Out the corner of the room, on the bed next to me a voice spoke to me. it was a low, calm voice, it spoke no more than 5 words to me. The language i t spoke was not in english. I was terrified because i knew that it was not a dream but it was real life. i screamed from terror and ran out of the room, after i spoke to the woman whom i worked for and after i turned down her offer to sleep with her in her bed. I returned to the room, I prayed over the room and rebuked any evil spirits that might have been behind it. Even though i was afraid i didnt feel any negative energy but then again i probally was too afraid to notice the difference. I talked to a number of my friends whom are also christians like myself and they think that it was God speaking to me. I was confused wondering why IF it was God why couldnt he just show me a sign or speak to me in my dream. why did he have to scare me half to death.. anywho, i prayed to God that if it was him that I would try my best to be brave in case he decided to talk to me again. i tell ppl about my experiences alot of them think im crazy including my mother. i dont care. I know whats real and whats not. i don't smoke, drink, do drugs or have any kind of mental illnesses or taking any prescribed medicine that would cause me to hear and see these things. alot of ppl call it a gift what i have. Not sure what to call it though, i just know that I am NOT crazy, nor am i stupid, i am very aware of what goes on around me. i guess this is it, i wanted to share this because it feels good knowing that there are others who've experienced the same things that i have experienced. :)
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Rachel 10/20/2010 13:26
ok, I just started researching paranormal voices due to years of strange experiences. At first i was worried that I might be crazy but after reading tons of stuff about schizophrenia,bi-polar,ocd, etc. none of it matches what I've experienced other than dis embodied voices. About 5yrs ago my father passed away, I was at my mothers a month after visiting her, she was having a very difficult time with his passing understandably so considering they were married for 47yrs. I was lying down resting one afternoon when I heard a womans voice call my name, thinking it was my mother I ot up to see what it was she needed, when I got to the living room down the hall no one was there? I was so confused, I chcked her bedroom and my mother was naping (asleep) later that night I asked her if she was calling me-she said no. I shrugged it off as nothing. When I returned to my home in TN. about 2wks later I was resting in my bed and i heard it again, this time it was a bit scary because I was the only one there, I got up anyways and i walked down the hall to the living room and - no one (as I knew) was there. I then said aloud (fellin silly) what!!! who are you and what do you want! nothing,of course. When I starded to walk back down the hall to my bedroom to lay back down I heard a loud CRASH! coming from the kitchen, I ran into the kitchen and the heavy glass cake dish I had on counter was on the floor, I was so pissed! I never even went in the kitchen, so wth I thought. I cleaned up the mess and said nothing to anyone and chose to forget about it. Well, about three nights ago my Fiance and I were making love and again I heard a female voice like a whisper call my name, it startled me! It was dark but It sounded like the voice was behind me, i usually don't get distracted easily in this type of moment but this caused me to open my eyes and look behind me, of course I didn't see anything or anybody so I shrugged it off, after all I was indisposed at that moment. Later I asked my fiance if he had called my name, he looked at me funny & said no. I told him what Im telling you and he didn't know what to say. I don't know what to think? I hope to find some explanation and or answers somehow.
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Carol 02/07/2011 11:18
Years ago when I was living in Buffalo, N. Y. a family friend told us of a medium she knew in the city who had group seances once or twice a week and who she said was really good. The medium's name was Lucy Walker. We went to a few of her seances and at one, when Mrs. Walker was in peak form, we heard voices. They sounded like a combination of a whistle and a whisper. We all heard them clearly and could even understand a word or two. Mrs. Walker was a very nice middle-class woman, around 60. It was inconceivable to suspect her of ventriloquism. It was broad daylight and we were sitting in her living room just 4 or 5 feet from her. There's no way she could have faked it. I've had a number of inexplicable experiences since then, but nothing has been so convincing as hearing those voices.
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what model and kind of tape recorder. tapes arent used much anymore, but id give it a try if i knew which to use. recently ventriloquists use electronic amplification where in the past they didnt, it seems kind of easy to them and it was just possibly overlooked. wont let the spirits get a word in edgewise, n you know, that soft voice of the spirits or whatever makes the strangest thoughts come to someone like a sledgehammer made of pillows, cant be copied. a living human communicating with 2 letters to phonetically sing one like 'eye' for letter i, just gives the whole thing a certain speed at which it 'has' to be done to make all the eye, wuh, eee, llll, flow into the words i will.
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